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Rating: PG
Summary: In
which Darcy returns unannounced to Hertfordshire soon after Lady Catherine's
visit. He comes across Lizzy at an awkward moment, but this is not the
only pickle she will find herself in this day!
Part One: Mr. Bingley's Visit
"Jane! He is come again," sang Mrs. Bennet, peering out the
breakfast room window. "Hurry and finish eating!"
Elizabeth rolled her eyes at Jane. "I am quite finished, mama. I
will go and offer him tea until Jane is ready."
"Thank you, Lizzy," said Jane softly as Elizabeth sailed out
the door.
Mr. Bingley was just entering the house. He smiled most warmly at
Elizabeth as she greeted him, but could not stop his eyes from straying down
the hall.
"My sister will be along directly, Mr. Bingley, and will join you in
the sitting room. You will not need to wait long; but would you like some
tea?"
"Yes, thank you, very much!" he said eagerly, obviously in too
happy a frame of mind to form sentences correctly.
They waited companiably for the tea, while Bingley attempted to restrain
himself from springing out of his seat and going to the door every few
seconds. He did not seem inclined to speak, but Elizabeth saw that she had
best distract him; so she ventured a little conversation.
"You are alone at Netherfield, still?"
"Oh! Yes, but not for much longer. I expect Darcy in the next two
days or so."
The door opened, and Bingley's eyes widened; but it was only the tea.
"Thank you, Sarah," said Elizabeth warmly, and went to get him
a cup. She did not know whether she wanted to discuss Mr. Darcy or not, and
was glad of the opportunity to busy herself.
"Here you are, sir," she presented him with his tea, and took
her own. The door opened: it was Mrs. Bennet, and Bingley surged from his
chair, but his smile was more politeness than eagerness.
"Oh, Mr. Bingley, it is good of you to come again to see us."
Mrs. Bennet began. "Dear Jane is on her way. And I see you have some
tea, that is very well." She sat in her favourite chair and gave Mr.
Bingley a look of contentment, for indeed she was quite content with him.
The door opened again, and Bingley sprang up; but it was Kitty.
"Miss Katherine, good morning," said Bingley, quite frustrated
but hiding it well. Elizabeth sipped her tea to hide a smile.
"I believe she will be next, Mr. Bingley,"
she said softly, so
that her mother would not hear her properly. Then, more loudly, "I
think I might go for a walk this morning, mama. It is a fine day."
Bingley looked at her gratefully. "Do you know, that is a marvellous
idea, Miss Eliza. I should greatly enjoy a walk, and perhaps..."
The door opened, and this time it was Jane.
Bingley was beside her beaming before she could move to the table.
"How do you feel about a bit of a walk, my dear? Miss Eliza was just
saying what a fine day it is, and how perfect for a walk."
"Oh! That would be lovely. I shall go and get my things immediately;
that is, if you don't mind, mama."
"Mind? Why should I mind? Of course you want to go for a walk, and
such a lovely day it is too."
Once outside, the three turned to face one another with wide smiles.
"Oh Lizzy, thank you for getting us out of the house so quickly."
"Think nothing of it, dear Jane. I know that you and Mr. Bingley
want nothing more than to spend as many moments as you can admiring one
another without interruption. So you shall walk in one direction, and I
shall choose another."
"Miss Bennet, are you sure..." began Mr. Bingley, his face in
confusion as he struggled between concern and relief.
"I assure you, sir, I have walked these roads alone for many a year
and never once have I come to grief," she laughed. "In fact, a
solitary walk is all I have had to keep me sane, on occasion. I like nothing
better than a long ramble in the peace and quiet, with no-one to criticise
me but myself."
He bowed, smiling, and kissed her hand. "I don't like to say it,
Miss Eliza, but I think I like you best of all my sisters!"
She waved them off, then turned the other way down the lane. Once well
out of sight of the house, she began to run, a smile on her face.
Part Two: An Uncomfortable Encounter
(Author's note: Thank you for your encouraging comments. Now I have a
swelled head. I must also issue a Warning for readers of a sensible
disposition - Melodrama approaching fast!)
Darcy had returned from London a little earlier than planned; in fact had
ridden since very early morning and had not sent warning to Bingley or
anyone else, feeling a great need for solitude. He needed time to think; to
see if he could determine how she viewed him. Was it possible her feelings
had changed? Lady Catherine's account hinted at it, but what if they had
not; dare he ask a second time? Dare he not?
Directly upon arriving in the neighbourhood he had ridden in the
direction of Longbourn; and spying a lovely wooded hill, he had dismounted
and started to walk. He needed to stretch his legs, and though the breeze
was refreshing he felt a little blasted by it from his hours spent at speed.
The sturdy trees would offer a welcome respite; he secured his horse by a
fine patch of grass and began striding upward. Indeed it was not long before
long the forest had the desired effect, and he started to feel calmer.
Towards the top of the hill he came upon a path, which he began to follow.
There were still a few flowers in the grass, and a bird was singing...and
not only a bird. A woman's voice could be faintly heard, raised in song. His
heart began to pound, for he was sure he recognised whose it was. The
melancholy tune was coming from above him, and though the wind made it hard
to tell the distance or direction exactly, he left the path and took the
shorter way towards the source of the song, and the top of the hill.
After scrambling up a steeper section, he rounded the base of a huge oak
- and there she was. The view she was contemplating was lovely, and he had
no doubt he had stumbled across one of her favourite haunts. She almost had
her back to him, for which he was thankful, for she was shredding flowers
into the breeze as she sang and he did not wish to make her self-conscious;
or to make her stop. He withdrew slightly, so that if she should turn
unexpectedly he would not be noticed. She finished her song, though the
sadness of the tune lingered in her expression, and began to remove her
bonnet. To Darcy's utter surprise, she then tossed the bonnet on the ground,
unpinned and untied her hair, and shook it loose into the wind with a sigh
of contentment. Darcy had never seen her so, though he had imagined it often
enough Ò and the reality outdid his expectation so tremendously, he felt
his heart would burst. He should not have followed her; how could he now
interrupt without causing the most profound embarrassment to them both? She
was carefree and unconscious, entirely natural; so unlike any other woman he
had ever known. He watched her avidly, taking in every detail. Her long dark
hair flowed in waves down her back, except where it was lifted by the wind.
She bent to collect her bonnet from the grass and moved to sit on a smooth
stone nearby, where she settled herself with a familiar ease, one knee drawn
up and her face resting on it. She sighed again, and sat gazing thoughtfully
down the hill for some minutes. Her expression remained grave, with an air
of melancholy. Could he be the reason for her unhappiness?
At that moment a robin alighted on the grass nearby, pecking for insects
with that alertness and grace that seems to belong exclusively to small
birds. Elizabeth watched it closely; its antics brought a smile to her face.
It came within three feet of the stone on which she sat, looked directly at
her with one bright eye, and was gone in a whirring of wings.
"Oh!" breathed Elizabeth, turning her head to trace its flight.
She laughed out loud, and abruptly rose to her feet, walked a few steps and
hurled the bonnet into the air with a cry. It was caught by the breeze and
drifted somewhat as it fell.
"Oh, no!" she groaned, hand on mouth, for she could see as
clearly as Darcy could that it was going to tangle in the branches of the
oak beside her. This it duly did. "Damn!" said the lady, and she
laughed at herself, shaking her head. She looked up at the offending hat,
hands on hips, and sighed. "Well, mine the fault, mine the remedy, I
suppose."
Darcy could not believe his eyes. Miss Bennet hitched up her skirts, and
with expert success scrambled up the tree until she was almost lost from his
view in the heavy foliage. He could still hear her straining within the
tree, cursing softly to herself. Branches swayed to mark her progress. The
branch on which the bonnet had stranded itself began to shake vigorously;
the bonnet loosened, and there was a cry of triumph from above as it fell.
At that moment he made his decision. He would approach her, and he would
plead his case. He was certain of one thing: that Elizabeth Bennet could not
help such spirited displays any more than he could help his reticence
amongst strangers. It had taken him many months of pain to realise the worth
of such individuality; to accept that all his notions of propriety and
honour were empty and hollow when faced with such integrity as she
possessed. Whether he had earned her love or not, he must show her that she
could not shock him; that she was acceptable to him exactly as she was Ò
that the narrow-minded, stiff-necked Darcy was gone because of her.
Filled with resolve, he stood away from his shelter and strode forward to
scoop her bonnet from the mud where it had fallen. The branches of the oak
continued to shudder as she descended; her feet appeared, and suddenly she
leaped, landing with a sodden thud. She bent to inspect her skirts, which
were stained with mud, shrugged, and straightened; then gasped with shock
and took a step back as she realised who was in front of her. Her eyes grew
wide and her face paled, then darkened with a heavy blush.
"M...Mr. Darcy!" she exclaimed, deeply mortified. What must he
think? There she stood in complete disarray, with dirty hands and scratches
and a torn dress and her hair flying every which way. Never had she wished
so fervently for the ground to open up and swallow her.
"Miss Bennet," he replied with perfect aplomb, as though
nothing was out of the ordinary. He even bowed deeply. "I believe this
is yours."
Part Three: Confessions
(Thanks again for the encouragement! Hope I haven't given anyone any
heart attacks - never fear, it can't get too bad...A Warning to the sensible
reader: Soppiness Alert)
After a moment more of horrified speechlessness, Elizabeth managed to
reach out and take the bonnet from his outstretched hand. "I ...I thank
you, sir." She would not meet his eyes. "I beg you...you must
excuse me," she said quietly, and turned to leave, highly embarrassed.
He was too fast; he expected it, and captured one of her hands before she
could escape. He would not release it, and she was halted.
"Miss Bennet - please." There was an entreaty in his voice; she
glanced up and saw that he was not laughing at her, but rather was gazing
intently on her, almost pleadingly. "I must confess...I must speak with
you, this instant."
Her face still burned with shame. That he, of all people, should have
seen her behaving in such an...improper fashion! He was no doubt going to
express his relief that she had not accepted him when given the chance, and
send her Lady Catherine's regards.
"Please, Miss Bennet," he said again. "Calm yourself. I am
heartily sorry for having disturbed your privacy so rudely, and do not wish
to embarrass you further. But I find myself somewhat overwhelmed..."
She waited for bitter news with a sinking heart, and still would not look
at him. He released her hand, content that she would hear him, and stepped a
little closer.
"I confess I had not realised that the wood-nymphs around Longbourn
were so lovely, or I would have visited these woods long before now."
At this she glanced up. It was the last thing she could have expected him
to say. To her surprise there was no disapproval in his tone, and the hint
of a smile around his mouth; was he teasing her?
"Please, madam," He spoke again more earnestly, "You must
forgive me."
"Forgive you?" She spoke in confused tones, and raised her eyes
to meet his in puzzlement. "Mr. Darcy, it is you who should forgive
me!"
Upset, she would not be interrupted, and continued past his objections,
though somewhat inarticulately due to the turmoil she was experiencing.
"It is I who owe you the deepest apology, Mr. Darcy. Not only have you
witnessed my...unseemly behaviour just now, and I know this must shame us
both, though you are too much the gentleman to mention it - I am also so
ashamed of the ill-founded accusations I levelled at you - I believe you
know to what I refer. And my family - My family owes you their current
happiness, yet I know how you must view us."
There was a slight pause; then he frowned, and said, "Miss Bennet,
you know of my dealings...?"
"Please do not blame my aunt, Mr. Darcy. It was Lydia's
thoughtlessness that first betrayed it, and then I could not rest until I
knew the particulars." She drew a deep breath, and went on: "You
must allow me to thank you, again and again, sir, for all that you have done
and suffered on our behalf; for they do not know to whom they are
indebted."
Once again he was silent for a moment before speaking. "Your family
owe me nothing, Miss Bennet. Much as I respect them, I believe I thought
only of you."
She could think of no reply to this, having convinced herself to forget
all hope; but when she looked up at him again she met with a look of such
regard and warmth that she began to blush, and lowered her lids.
"And what did you say of me last April, that I did not
deserve?" he continued. "My behaviour to you at the time merited
the strongest reproof; it was unpardonable. You most rightly called me
ungentlemanlike, which I shall never forget..."
"Mr. Darcy..." she tried to interrupt, but he would not stop.
"Miss Bennet, you must be aware of my...reserve, my unease in
expressing myself. Yet it was not only this that led you, and others, to
call me proud. As a child I was given good principles, yet not taught to
correct my temper. My parents, worthy in all other respects, indulged me to
a faulty degree and allowed me, encouraged me to believe that conceit, and
pride, amongst those of consequence was a natural and worthy thing. I have
been a selfish being all my life, until you checked me, Elizabeth."
She was watching him with all her attention now, her embarrassment
forgotten in her astonishment, while his eyes were mostly on his feet.
"Since that time I have tried to show you...tried to act in a manner
that would obtain your forgiveness, lessen your ill opinion by letting you
see that your reproofs had been attended to. I know I have not always been
successful; I cannot overcome this...shyness of mine. Forgive me for the
awkwardness of my expression."
Here he paused a short moment; then he seemed to gather himself, and
raised his eyes to her.
"Miss Bennet, you are too generous to trifle with me. If your
feelings are still what they were last April, then tell me so at once. My
affections and wishes are unchanged; but one word from you will silence me
on this subject forever."
She looked away from him, her heart pounding. He still loved her! But...
"You would still seek my hand then, even after..." and here she
gestured to the tree which stood next to them. "You know I would not be
a proper wife, such as you deserve, Mr. Darcy. I am too impulsive, too
imprudent in my manner."
"On the contrary, Elizabeth," he reached for her hand again,
and raised it to his lips. "It is your liveliness, your wit and your
fearlessness that drew me to you. Such a sight as was shown me this morning
only serves to deepen in my eyes the beauty of your heart. All the notions
of propriety in the world can never touch me again, now that I have seen
where value truly lies."
She blushed becomingly, her mind a whirl; and when she raised her eyes
again there was a glint in them, and an ironic little smile was on her lips.
"Mr. Darcy...forgive me, but I must enquire: How long were you
watching me?"
It was now his turn to blush, and a sheepish grin graced his mouth.
"It was your song that drew me up here. I was behind you from halfway
through it; and I was utterly bewitched."
"Well I must say I find that fact somewhat disconcerting; but I am
convinced of your honesty."
He was looking at her again, and waiting anxiously.
"Miss Bennet, is this all the answer that I am receive? That you are
convinced of my honesty?"
His grip tightened on her hand, causing her heart to beat faster still;
and she took great pleasure in banishing any ghosts of insecurity that still
lurked unspoken: "Mr. Darcy. I do not know what I have done to deserve
it; but nothing in the world would give me greater pleasure than to be your
wife."
An expression of heart-felt delight diffused over his face, which she
smiled to see; and on an impulse she let her bonnet fall, stepped towards
him and caught her arms around his neck, and held him close. He stiffened
for an instant; then wrapped his arms around her almost more tightly than
she could bear, and pressed his face into her loosened hair. A sigh passed
through him, as though some great tension had been released.
"Dearest, loveliest Elizabeth," he said softly. She could not
reply; her eyes were stinging. But she tightened the grip of her arms
momentarily, until she had regained her composure. A moment later he
loosened his hold, and they drew back enough to see each other clearly.
"Would you do me the honour...I mean, my sister calls me
William," he said shyly.
"If the occasion should arise, I suppose I could manage it,"
she replied with a playful smile. "It is an easy enough name to say, I
think."
"You torment me," he softly accused. He raised one hand to her
face and caressed her cheek; she leaned into his touch.
"So early in the engagement, too...perhaps you should call the whole
thing off," she said, her eyes closing with pleasure as he stroked her
hair.
"You will not escape so easily as that," he assured her. His
face moved closer to hers, until she could feel his breath on her cheek.
"Do you know," she remarked with mock seriousness, "That I
have a cousin called William? I believe you are acquainted with him: in
fact, I believe him to be in the service of your relative..."
Here she was forced to discontinue her teasing, for to her delight her
lips had become otherwise engaged. The kiss lengthened; and to the joy of
both the sensation was more than either could have dreamed. Finally
Elizabeth pulled back, and they stood breathing hard and leaning on one
another.
"Oh! I think I need to sit down," she murmured.
"Miss Bennet, I am sorry," Darcy exclaimed, embarrassed.
"I did not mean...I should not have..."
"Perhaps you are right," breathed Elizabeth. "Highly
improper, I dare say, and most reprehensible for a young man to take
advantage of a lady so."
He looked at her, dismayed with himself; but she smiled up at him, eyes
glinting. "But I am very glad you did, William; and I should be happy
to try it again...in a few minutes, when I have recovered
sufficiently."
And they laughed together for the first time; and each delighted in the
happiness that shone from the other's eyes.
Part Four: An Untimely Discovery
A little later, the two walked slowly arm in arm down the hill. Elizabeth
was carrying her bonnet, with her hairpins and gloves bundled inside it.
Darcy had offered gallantly to carry it for her, but she told him she
thought that would be a poor beginning and would lessen his respect for her
abilities. They talked easily as they progressed, mostly of their history.
The informality and high emotion of the earlier scene atop the hill had
removed many awkwardness. She had realised that he was not so proper as he
seemed, after all; and he had realised the same, and that much joy was to be
found in freedom. He hoped that he might meet a certain wood-nymph in the
grounds at Pemberley; she laughed and blushed, and owned that she had once
seen a handsome water-sprite there, and that perhaps the sprite and the
nymph could be friends; which signalled his turn to blush. On occasion they
would stop, to admire a certain view or one another.
Eventually the bottom of the hill was attained, and they took paths
through the Longbourn fields which would come out at the garden woods, near
the house but not too near. Here was Mr. Bennet's favourite place to sit and
think, for here he was usually assured of solitude and could not hear
ructions or excitements from the manor. No flower beds had been planted in
the grove, so it had never been especially attractive to any other family
members - save his second daughter, who loved the trees as well as he did;
and he never minded her presence. At this noontide the gentleman sat, hidden
on an obscure bench, thinking about his dear Lizzy and what could be
troubling her; for she had not been the same since her return from
Derbyshire.
The faint sound of voices approaching distracted him, and he frowned when
he realised that they were coming from the direction of the fields. Only
Elizabeth used that path, as a rule, and from the laughter he recognised
that it was indeed her; but accompanied by a man who was talking quietly.
His voice was too low and circumspect to be Bingley's Ò and had she not
walked out alone this morning? Curious, Mr. Bennet craned his neck over the
hedge to see who might walk in through the gate. The sight that met his eyes
caused his mouth to drop open in astonishment. Elizabeth was walking arm in
arm with Mr. Darcy! And familiarly, too, as though some intimacy existed
between them. With her hair unbound on her shoulders, no less, and a blush
on her cheeks, and a silly great smile! The signs were unmistakable, and Mr.
Bennet was torn: should he jump up at once and demand an accounting, or
should he leave things be for the moment and speak to her in private? The
question did not trouble him for long Ò for if there was a chance that
Elizabeth had found happiness, then he would be the last to place it in
jeopardy. He sank back out of sight, though not so far as to obstruct his
view, in case he should be needed.
Once inside the arch, Elizabeth and Darcy stopped. She detached her arm
from his, though they remained hand in hand, and turned to face him. Mr.
Bennet, unseen, burned to hear what they would say, and held his breath
without knowing it.
"Will you come in for luncheon?" she asked politely.
"Much as I would like to, Elizabeth, I had better not," said
Darcy with a wry smile. (Darcy, smiling? And calling her Elizabeth!)
"Or they might think me responsible for your...um...appearance."
His free hand gently touched her hair.
"Oh!" she exclaimed, and blushed. "I had forgotten Ò I am
sorry, you are perfectly right. My mother might even forget about your ten
thousand a year if we started another Bennet scandal. She would never speak
to me again," she laughed.
"Indeed," he replied good-humouredly, giving the hidden watcher
a further shock. "But I will call later this afternoon, after I have
cleaned up a bit at Netherfield."
"I will look forward to it," she said, smiling.
"I will be counting the minutes," Darcy said intently; and he
pulled her closer. She touched his face, and he lowered his head and kissed
her. It was certainly not the kiss of a friend; the bonnet fell neglected
from Elizabeth's fingers, and Mr. Bennet thought that if he were given any
more shocks today he would expire on the spot.
Finally Darcy turned to leave; she watched him until he was out of sight,
and gave a sigh. Smiling wistfully, she stooped to retrieve her burden, and
was turning towards the house when to her horror she heard her father's
voice hiss, "Lizzy! Is he gone?"
Part Five: An Explanation Demanded
She was so badly startled by the sound of her father's voice she almost
fell over, and dropped the bonnet again. When she had recovered a little,
she looked about, but could not see him; then she noticed his arm behind the
hedge, waving at her.
"Over here, Lizzy. Come and sit down with me, my child, I need to
talk with you."
With a deep sigh of resignation, Elizabeth did as she was bid; though she
had never been so reluctant to see her father in her life. Her face was
still burning with embarrassment over what he might have seen, over the
sight she must look, over how on earth she was to easily explain such a
difficult matter as her drastic change of heart.
Mr. Bennet rose and took his favourite daughter by the hand, leading her
to the concealed bench which she had clearly forgotten existed. "Come
here, Lizzy. Sit down. It is clear that much needs to be said, and I will
begin, as I dare say that you are somewhat at a loss for words at the
moment."
She could only nod and sit, clearly much discomfited.
"I was going to ask you if you are out of your senses, my dear, but
you have answered that question yourself. The distraction and melancholy
that has afflicted you for some time was plainly not with you a short time
ago, so I suppose that things have been resolved on that score Ò though I
may say I was not expecting the source of your unhappiness, and have been
given quite the rude surprise! You pulled the wool over our eyes very
cunningly, Lizzy, and I hope to be given an explanation."
He looked at her expectantly, but not unkindly.
"Come, my dear, I will not laugh at you, if that is what you fear. I
will save any chuckles that might threaten to overwhelm me until I am alone
again, and you cannot hear them." He squeezed her hand and winked at
her, by way of encouragement.
Elizabeth finally looked at her father, and squeezed his hand in return.
"Oh, papa. I hardly know where to begin."
"Well I can offer a starting point that has greatly piqued my
paternal curiousity - and that is, the state of your appearance. Were you
merely running wild again, or have there been more liberties taken than I
like to suppose?"
"No, no!" She blushed again, but was anxious to reassure him.
"It was my doing entirely. I went up to Smithy Hill this morning, and I
got a little carried away. Mr. Darcy met me later, you must not think that
he..."
"Hmph!" snorted Mr. Bennet, one eyebrow upraised. "As to
that, I am not sure what he would not do, after your charming display here
in my own garden!"
"Father, I am truly sorry,"' she said earnestly. "We
thought we were alone, we should never have presumed..."
"Yes yes, well well. The violence of young lovers. I trust that he
has done the honourable thing and made you an offer?"
"Yes - yes he has," she said, and could not help but smile
shyly.
"Well, if such a man can see you as you are now and still make you
an offer, there must be more to him than meets the eye! I shall take great
pleasure deciphering him and plumbing his depths, Lizzy, for it is plain he
must possess them - though I think my pleasure will not be as great as
yours, eh?"
"No, father," said his daughter, with an embarrassed laugh.
"I think you must be right."
"Well well," said Mr. Bennet, and patted Elizabeth's hand.
"Now we have gotten off on the right foot and my worst fears are
allayed, I pray you to make me understand how on earth such a proud,
unpleasant fellow as Mr. Darcy should be marrying one of my daughters Ò and
the one who I credited with having the best sense, at that. The last I knew
of anything, you couldn't stand the sight of him! Whatever has been going
on, and how long have I been in the dark?"
Elizabeth, greatly affected, began her story earnestly with an account of
Darcy's first proposal at Hunsford the previous spring, and detailing her
struggles with the issues raised by his letter; her self-mortification as
she realised her prejudices, her changing opinion of the gentleman himself -
and all the confusions of their encounters at Pemberley, with the
Gardiners. She enumerated with energy the good qualities and changes in his
demeanour that she had there become sure of, and confessed her self-doubts
when he had abruptly left her for London.
"So!" said her father, an avid listener. "Then began your
tortures here at Longbourn - and no wonder you found it hard to laugh when
I read you that letter from Mr. Collins! And Lady Catherine?"
"Yes, papa," smiled Elizabeth, colouring slightly, "She
really did come to refuse her consent."
At this Mr. Bennet could not restrain himself, and had to laugh for a
minute; and Elizabeth joined him.
Then she said, more seriously, "But that is not all. I have not yet
told you of the part Mr. Darcy played in the business of poor Lydia and Mr.
Wickham." And she went on, outlining all the facts and how she had
gained them.
"I am all astonishment!" he exclaimed when she had finished
speaking. "And today he came across you looking like Diana the
Huntress, and proposed to you again! I do believe I may be speechless, for I
cannot think of anything more to say." He smiled fondly at his
daughter, and reached over to kiss her on the forehead. When he drew back
she thought she could see a tear in his eye as he spoke: "Well, my
dear, if it is all as you have said, he deserves you. I could not have
parted with you, my Lizzy, to anyone less worthy."
They sat quietly for a few moments, enjoying the peace of
each other's
company and contentment; then Mr. Bennet heaved a sigh.
"Well, Lizzy, up we must get, and back to the house. We are rather
late for lunch, I believe, and your mother will be frantic. We must sneak
you in the side door again so that she will not scold you Ò but after you
break her a certain piece of news, I dare say you will be allowed to wear
your hair however you choose, and get as dirty as you like, and tear all
your gowns willy-nilly; she will never criticise you again."
They both laughed, and Elizabeth took her father's proffered arm, and
they walked out of the grove towards the house.
Conclusion Continued: A Painful
Extraction
Author's Note: This has been written to satisfy all those who
expressed themselves dissatisfied with my last conclusion, believing it
premature. Thank you all for your confidence, and I hope you will not be
disappointed! This was fun to write, and all the usual Warnings apply.
Dinner at the Bennets' that night was as strange a mixture of delight and
excruciation as Elizabeth had ever experienced. Mrs. Bennet had met Mr.
Darcy's arrival with her usual displeasure, and had bordered on the uncivil
in her manner of address ever since he had stepped through the door. He bore
the depredations gamely, however, and even went so far as to solicit her
opinion once or twice. Bingley, who was more effusive in his greeting to
Darcy than usual due to his friend's surprise appearance, was even more
surprised to notice this effort to appease the lady of the house. Indeed
Darcy spoke more words that evening to various family members than he had
ever done before. Elizabeth, though strangely quiet, could not help stealing
a glance in his direction whenever she thought no one might intercept it;
his returning glances made her feel warm and light-headed, and quite unable
to eat with her usual appetite. Bingley and Jane both noticed several silent
exchanges of this kind, and as a result shared a hopeful communication of
their own; neither had failed to notice Elizabeth's awkward silences or
Darcy's uncharacteristic affability. Mr. Bennet was watching the whole
display with unspoken amusement, and he winked at Lizzy once or twice when
he caught her eye, very unhelpfully in her opinion.
At last the meal ended, the party removed to the drawing-room for evening
amusements, and Mr. Bennet retired to his library. Mrs. Bennet, curious to
see this newly-civil Mr. Darcy, invited him to join the table for a round of
whist; but the gentleman declined most politely, pleading a prior
engagement. He then went to stand beside Elizabeth, causing Mrs. Bennet for
the first time to engage in suspicions hitherto undreamed of. She could not
hear of what they spoke, but the intimacy of their manner was so unexpected
that it quite caught her notice for two seconds complete before she had to
accost Jane and Mr. Bingley, who were not giving the card table their full
attention. When she looked up again directly, Mr. Darcy had disappeared, and
Elizabeth was seated with a book, fidgeting. Mrs. Bennet shrugged and
thought no more of it.
"Come in," called Mr. Bennet cheerfully, upon hearing a soft
knock on the library door. He knew who it would be, and was quite relishing
the prospect of the conversation to come. He had a glass of fine port in his
hand and was all at ease, for after his little amusements were over he was
anticipating great happiness in certain quarters, and indeed could hardly
restrain the emotion in himself.
"I hope I am not disturbing you, sir," said Darcy, as he closed
the door behind him. "If you have a moment spare, I have a matter I
would discuss with you."
"Indeed?" rejoined Mr. Bennet, in great good humour. "A
most serious matter, by your expression. Do sit down, Mr. Darcy, and take
your ease; can I offer you a glass?"
"I thank you, no," said Darcy uncomfortably. "I will not
trespass on your time too long."
"As you will, sir," said Mr. Bennet graciously.
Darcy stood awkwardly for a moment, then cleared his throat. Mr. Bennet,
watching him through new eyes since Elizabeth's revelations, was pleased to
see evidence of shyness rather than arrogance in his manner.
"Mr. Bennet, I wish to speak to you about your second daughter,
Elizabeth," Darcy began, his gaze direct but diffident.
"Oh? What has she done now?" her father replied with a frown,
though his eyes still twinkled. "She is always up to something, I hope
she has not offended you in some way."
"Not at all, sir, you mistake me," Darcy said quickly. "I
assure you she is perfectly amiable in her behaviour. In fact, it is just
this that I wish to discuss..."
"You surprise me, sir," Mr. Bennet interrupted. "Do you
mean to tell me that you approve of my daughter? I thought you did not like
her at all!"
Darcy was struck dumb for a moment before he was able to rally himself.
"No, sir, on the contrary. My regard for Miss Bennet has long been of
the tenderest kind. I wish to marry her, sir, and I have come to apply for
your consent."
"I see," said Mr. Bennet thoughtfully, placing his glass on his
desk. "And Elizabeth? What are her thoughts on the matter?"
"She has agreed, sir. Most wholeheartedly, I believe."
Mr. Bennet was really rather impressed. His attempts to bring out any
snobbishness or petty behaviour in Darcy had quite failed; the fellow was
acquitting himself admirably. But the interview was not over yet.
"I see," said Mr. Bennet for the second time. He fixed Darcy
with his mild blue eyes and leaned forward in his chair as he spoke.
"You spoke to her this morning, then, am I to understand?"
"Indeed, sir."
"Very good, very good," said Mr. Bennet, feeling like the cat
that has cornered the mouse. "I suppose you would then be in the
perfect position to clarify something for me."
"Certainly. What is it you wish to know?"
Mr. Bennet leaned back in his chair with a sigh. "Sit down, young
man. It really would be advisable."
Darcy obliged him curiously and cautiously.
"Let me ask you, Mr. Darcy: Do you consider yourself an honourable
man?"
"I would hope so, sir, yes." Darcy's confusion was becoming
obvious, so Mr. Bennet decided to get straight to the point.
"You understand, as a father, there are certain things I have to
ask; and I must know, Mr. Darcy, how my daughter Elizabeth came to be in
such a state of disarray as I saw her in before luncheon today. Perhaps you
can enlighten me on this topic."
Darcy looked down, clearly embarrassed. "Sir, Miss Bennet..."
he cleared his throat. "I met Miss Bennet during her walk this morning,
and she had been...er...enjoying the breeze up on the hill."
"Enjoying the breeze? What do you mean?" frowned Mr. Bennet.
"She...um...felt the breeze better with her hair down." Said
Mr. Darcy, red as a beet.
Mr. Bennet let him stew for a moment before speaking. "Did she tell
you so herself, or have you some other involvement?"
Darcy forced himself to look Mr. Bennet in the eye. "Mr. Bennet, you
must know that your daughter would never willingly place herself in such a
compromising position..."
"I'm sure you are correct, Mr. Darcy; but what of unwillingly?"
Mr. Bennet's countenance was perfectly grave. Darcy gaped like a fish, and
reddened with anger - but he caught himself before he could say anything
rash. After all, Mr. Bennet had no assurance of his regard for Elizabeth
save his word; and no reason to believe his word at all, for he had not made
himself well-known or well-liked in this district when given the opportunity
in the past. What father would not act with suspicion in such circumstances?
"Please, sir," Darcy began, his tone a little rough but his
manner humble. "If you will hear me out for a moment, I hope you will
be satisfied."
"Very well," Mr. Bennet conceded, and waited expectantly.
"Let me begin by saying that I perfectly understand any
apprehensions you may be feeling. While your daughter has since had
opportunity to improve our acquaintance at Hunsford and at Lambton, I am
well aware that your own impression of me must be somewhat less favourable.
I have given you no reason to consider me trustworthy. I am ashamed to
remember such behaviour as I last exhibited whilst in Hertfordshire Ò I can
offer no valid excuse for my ill-mannered and arrogant conduct. I considered
this society beneath me, and gave offence to many, I am sure Ò including
your daughter, as you may be aware." Here he paused for a moment to
catch his breath. Mr. Bennet remained in expectant silence, so Darcy
continued: "It was my continuing acquaintance with Elizabeth that
taught me to condemn such attitudes in myself, you will be happy to know.
She is an extraordinary woman, Mr. Bennet, and I hope you will never be
anything but proud of her. Please believe that I would never do anything to
harm or shame her - or her family. She has given me back to myself; I owe
her my happiness. I realise that her appearance this morning could be easily
misconstrued, but I beg you to believe..."
"Never mind, Mr. Darcy," said Mr. Bennet, brushing away Darcy's
protestations. "We will go on: I am gratified by your speech but not
quite satisfied. You are telling me then, that you took no liberties with my
daughter this morning."
Darcy dropped his gaze again and waited for his face to stop burning a
little before he raised his eyes to answer, "As regards her appearance,
you assume correctly, sir. But I must be honest and confess that our...my
behaviour this morning was not always strictly proper. I am ashamed to
confess it. Though you must believe me that it was nothing dreadful,"
he went on quickly.
Mr. Bennet was most pleased; the poor man was both candid and discreet,
and was more concerned for Lizzy's reputation than his own. Who would have
thought it; Mr. Bennet could hardly keep his mouth straight. He stood up out
of his chair, and on seeing the look of apprehension on Darcy's features was
almost undone - but managed to restrict himself to the slightest of smiles.
"Mr. Darcy. You are an honest fellow, and I have been tormenting you
most cruelly and shamefully." He held out his hand for Darcy to shake;
Darcy stood, a little uncertainly, and did so. "I have finished teasing
you now. If Lizzy wants you, then of course you have my blessing. You would
have it in any case, but you have it doubly so now, after putting up with a
terrible old man so bravely."
Darcy sank back into his chair, unable to speak.
"You seem a little shocked, sir," smiled Mr. Bennet; and he
reached for his decanter and a glass. "Here, have some refreshment. We
shall drink a toast!"
"Thank you, sir," Darcy accepted the glass, having found his
voice again. "I do believe your daughter has inherited your sense of
humour."
"Yes, I fear you are right." Mr. Bennet acknowledged, with a
lift of his eyebrows. "I hope it won't be the death of you, for you
seem like quite a decent fellow and I should be sorry not to improve our
acquaintance."
"Thank you, Mr. Bennet. The feeling is mutual, I'm sure." Darcy
ventured a weak smile, and raised his glass to his lips. Elizabeth had a
formidable guardian in her father.
"Well well," said Mr. Bennet, and he looked over at his new
son-in-law with a glint in his eye. "I have a confession of my own to
make, you know: I was in the grove earlier, when you made your
farewells."
Port sprayed all over Mr. Bennet's desk, and Darcy went into a paroxysm
of coughing.
At the sound, Elizabeth, who had been hovering nervously outside after
sneaking out of the drawing-room a short time earlier to see what was taking
so long, burst through the door. Her father was standing with a broad grin
on his face, patting Darcy on the back with enthusiasm.
"Father! What..." she began, not knowing what to think.
Hurrying over, she took the glass out of Darcy's hand while he wheezed and
spluttered, bent over the desk.
"Just in time, Lizzy," observed Mr. Bennet cheerfully. "We
were celebrating your happy news, my dear, when he started to choke; went
down the wrong way, I expect. You can take over the nursing, and make my
apologies to Mr. Darcy when he has recovered himself. Tell him not to worry
about the table. I am going to stand by the fire in the drawing-room. I
shall see you both shortly."
Elizabeth looked up at her father, who reached out and took her hand and
raised it to his lips. "You will be a very happy woman, my dear. I
approve wholeheartedly." He winked at the still-gasping Darcy, then was
gone, closing the door behind him.
Elizabeth sighed with relief, and placed a gentle hand on Darcy's bent
head. "Are you all right?"
He nodded, and leaned back in his chair, breathing deeply. "Yes. I
believe I shall make a full recovery Ò as long as I never have to ask your
father for your hand again."
"The once should do the trick," smiled Elizabeth, moving a
port-spattered newspaper so she could sit on the desk in front of him.
"Was he very disagreeable?"
"No, no," Darcy assured her. "He was all ease and
friendliness. I was referring to how nervous I felt before I went in."
"Oh?" said Elizabeth, disbelievingly.
"Truly, I was very nervous; and I hope never to feel so nervous
again," he reached for her hand, and squeezed it gently. "But now
all is well."
She smiled broadly at him, and Darcy was sure the glint in her eye was
the same as one he had seen not long ago. "He told you, didn't
he," she said teasingly.
"Told me?" Darcy tried to sound nonchalant, "I am sure I
had ears only for his consent. He did not tell me much else."
"Oh, William, you are a terrible liar," she said with a laugh.
"I know my father very well, and I only hope he was not too
cruel."
"Well," said Darcy sheepishly, realising the jig was up,
"Shall we say he has had his amusement at my expense."
"I think we shall never hear the end of it," said Elizabeth
with a sigh. "He gave me the most awful fright this morning after you
left. But luckily he loves me too well to be cross with me; and once I had
taken pains to explain the situation, he seemed quite easy. I should have
known he would drag you over the coals. He likes to make his point
felt."
Darcy closed his eyes and rubbed at his forehead. "I feel like I
have just been through the Spanish Inquisition. And he knew the whole time!
I hope I never get on your father's bad side, Lizzy. He would give me the
terrors."
"Poor man," Elizabeth grinned warmly at her distraught
intended, and stroked his fingers. "And now I must tell my mother - and then we shall know what we have done."
"I know what we have done already," said Darcy with a little
smile, and he raised her hand to his lips, and kissed her fingertips, and
then her palm. Her eyes shone, and she smiled at him, and brushed his cheek
with her hand.
"We must go, or someone will come looking for us," she said
regretfully.
"In a moment," said Darcy, and he pulled her closer until she
fell into his lap with a giggle. "They can wait for a moment," he
said quietly. They smiled at one another, and their faces drew together for
a sweet kiss, and then another, longer one.
It could not be long, however, before they had to pull back. "I love
you," she whispered, "but we really must go."
He acquiesced reluctantly and allowed her to rise, following her to the
door. As they opened it the sound of her family enjoying themselves came
floating down the hall: Mrs. Bennet was losing at her cards, and Kitty was
winning triumphantly. Mr. Bennet was questioning Mary about the book she was
reading; of Jane and Bingley, nothing could be heard. There was a sudden
lull in the noise level, and Mrs. Bennet could be heard to say sharply:
"Where is Lizzy vanished to? And Mr. Darcy?"
"Lizzy has gone to find something, I believe," her husband
answered her, "And Mr. Darcy is in the library. I am sure they will
turn up shortly."
Darcy squeezed Elizabeth's hand, and she took a deep breath; and together
they walked forward to face their future.
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